Bye Haters & Drama

To those who follow me, and are interested in our story, I apologize for not updating.

Once we moved to North Carolina, we escaped much of the drama that was always around us, and I have not wanted to update those who were causing the drama. I don’t want to give anyone any fuel for their gossip fires.

So for now, I think I’ll just keep my blog either private or silent entirely. I have kept a public blog for many years, and nowadays I just don’t feel the need to share my family’s business with the world. I have my trusted circle of people, and that’s good enough for me.

So thank you for following my blog, but for now I will say goodbye as I turn the page into our future. ❤️

Unsettled

I’ve talked about this a bit amongst my friends and family. But I’m just going to put it out there officially: I DON’T LIKE IT HERE. Everyone I come across seems to have moved here from somewhere else in the country, or every from other countries. And everyone tells me “oh, you’re going to love it here!” Ok, why? Why does everyone love it here? Traffic is absolutely atrocious, day and night. If you such as need to run to the store for 1 or 2 forgotten items, it takes at least 45 minutes. It’s urban, but things are spaced so far apart, with a thick strip of trees between everything to make it appear more rural. All the roads are twisty, making it also take longer to get from one place to another. There’s no direct route for anything. People are nice most of the time in public, but no one seems to want to create a real friendship. (I know some of the is the pandemic, I don’t need reminded).

I used to think living in a bigger town/city would be more convenient. With more things to do and a bigger variety of people to meet and befriend. More career opportunities and a better overall environment. I was completely wrong. It’s simply not for me. I want a smaller town. Where businesses are all within a couple miles of each other, and you can go for pleasant walks in your own neighborhood without cars flying past at 60mph. I want familiar faces instead of a constantly changing sea of strangers. I want a bank and doctors office that greets you, knowing who you are instead of treating you like “just another person.”

I never in my life thought I’d say it, but I miss Newton. Maybe not Newton specifically, but the culture. The small town, familiar faces, some people know your name, safe, comfortable culture of a smaller town. It’s the kind of place I want to raise Felix. Not the city.

I can’t say I regret coming here to the Raleigh area. I have learned a lot, mostly about myself. It’s something I should have learned earlier in life. But now that I know, I want to find a smaller town to go plant roots. Maybe Iowa, maybe not. Wherever the wind blows Jarrod and me. I love exploring, but I look forward to finding a place that we don’t want to move away from.

Live By The Earth

“Drink water from the spring where horses drink. The horse will never drink bad water.

Lay your bed where the cat sleeps.

Eat the fruit that has been touched by a worm.

Boldly pick the mushroom on which the insects sit.

Plant the tree where the mole digs.

Build your house where the snake sits to warm itself.

Dig your fountain where the birds hide from heat.

Go to sleep and wake up at the same time with the birds – you will reap all of the days golden grains.

Eat more green – you will have strong legs and a resistant heart, like the beings of the forest.

Swim often and you will feel on earth like the fish in the water.

Look at the sky as often as possible and your thoughts will become light and clear.

Be quiet a lot, speak little – and silence will come in your heart, and your spirit will be calm and full of peace.”

Saint Seraphim of Sarov

Beach Day

This happened on May 24, 2020.

North Carolina has many things to do that Iowa does not.  One of those things (and likely my favorite), is BEACHES!!  I adore trips to the ocean.  Since we had been through weeks, or even months of planning, and a long, stressful move, Jarrod and I decided to treat ourselves and the family to a trip to the beach for some fun before resuming normal life.  It just so happened to be Memorial Day weekend, which we weren’t trying to celebrate necessarily.  But we went anyway (except Evan, who decided not to join us).

It is a 2-hour drive from our home to get to the closest beaches.  We drove straight there and found a decent parking spot after a bit of driving around looking. We spent about 3 hours in the water. The beach flag was red, so the water was pretty rough. But we all had a blast! It was exactly what we needed.

Also, this was Felix’s first trip to the ocean. Lots of pictures, but I’ll share only a couple here.