Remembering

Iowa has always been my home.  My mom moved us here to Newton when I was 5 years old.  Newton is where I grew childhood friendships, and where I started and attended elementary school.  A huge chunk of my childhood was here, and nearly all of my adulthood.  I was only away from Newton long enough to finish high school and learn about working and being on my own in a larger city, and then I came right back here.  My children were all four born here, and my three oldest have attended school here always.  Jarrod and I met here (and he’s been a lifelong resident as well).  We worked a job together, built a happy home together in the only house we’ve ever been in as a couple, and created a life and family together here.

Newton-IA

I have learned about love and heartache.  The gift of life and the devastation of loss.  All the good times full of laughter and joy, along with all the deeply desperate and bad times.  Driving through Newton, every street has a memory.  Every park holds a part of my personal history.  Many houses contain pieces of my childrens’ upbringings.  And here we are, in our last few days within it all.

Among the things I will miss, of course, my mom is the one I will miss the most.  She’s been the one here for me always, no matter what.  She’s been my best friend, the one I can go to and lean on for anything.  She knows me inside and out.  I love her so very much.  I will miss my best friend Amber.  Though this pandemic has kept us apart a lot more than we’d like to be, it is going to be rough knowing I can’t just drive down the road and hang out.  I’m going to miss Skyla and Shane, new friends that Jarrod and I have made through Felix.  I’m going to miss our wonderfully spacious house that has been our family home through the duration of our marriage so far.  This house has more memories for us than I could even begin to count.  I am going to miss our favorite breakfast/lunch spot, Midtown Cafe, and the owners, The Sharpnacks.  They have been like extended family to us.  Felix was basically grown in my tummy on their delicious creations.  I’m going to miss the helpful therapy providers and medical professionals Felix has needed during his infancy.  We’ve gotten so much support from them for his developmental needs.  And of course many more friends and acquaintances I have made throughout the years.

New-chapterHowever, I very much look forward to turning the page in my life story.  Jarrod and I will be presented in our new home as a couple, from day one.  No one will be asking us how our exes are, or what happened years ago.  They will see us as a family unit, and accept that from the beginning.  We will no longer be questioned or doubted for our longevity or commitment.  The older boys can all take their lives into their own hands and put out whatever part of themselves they want to be known for as well.  Felix will have more opportunities as he grows than he ever could have been provided here.  Jarrod already has career opportunities and options in NC he could not achieve here.  And I’m looking forward to finding my path wherever life takes me out there as well.

Though I’m looking around and realizing all that I will miss, I am also very excited to turn this page and create my new chapter.  One for not just myself, but most of all for my family.  This is going to be the amazing, refreshing turn of events we all need in our lives.

4 days until MOVING DAY!

My next update will be from our new home, about our journey and our new beginning.  Stay tuned…

Felix is 1!

We made it!  Felix is a year old!  He has grown and changed so much since he was born.  For the first six months of his life I didn’t think we’d make it to this day, but we sure did.  Nowadays, Felix is a very busy boy.  He is working very hard in physical therapy, building up those muscles that it takes to crawl and eventually walk.  He crawls a little bit at a time once or twice per day, so he DOES know how.  But he finds it easier and faster to army crawl on his belly to get to what he wants.  He likes to use his walker toys to pull himself up onto his knees or his feet.  But he’s not at all steady on his feet yet.  I am excited for him to learn how to use his body in these ways, but I am in no hurry.  He’s moving on his own timeline and I’ve finally come to a place of acceptance with that.  He’s healthy and happy and that’s what matters the very most.

Felix is still breastfeeding, though less these days.  He eats breakfast, lunch and supper with the family, mostly eating what we eat.  He still has some purees and softer foods because with his motor delays, he has some delays in how he eats as well.  But its getting better every day.  He loves bath time…. in fact I think anything involving water is his favorite!  He splashes and crawls around in the tub.  And when I take him to the pool at the local YMCA, he is very excited and kicks and splashes the whole time!  His other favorite part of the day is breakfast time with mommy and daddy before work.

I don’t want to jinx anything and say everything is on track with sleep… because nothing is perfect.  But for the time being things have improved.  In general he’s sleeping more at night, but still never took up napping.  I’ve accepted that as well, and quite enjoy him being awake and keeping me company during our days.  He’s so fun, smiley, and really likes helping me do household chores and having me play with him in his playroom.  He also has a couple of friends for play dates now.

Some things coming up for Felix: he had an eye exam and they found he needs glasses.  Hopefully that will help inspire him to keep working on crawling.  We’re hoping if he can see further and more clearly, he will want to explore his surroundings more.  Also, when he stands, he has a tendency to turn his feet over and stand on his toes and the tops of his feet with his toes curled under.  The PT says that is what some kiddos do for stability, though it is terribly counter-productive.  So he’s getting SureSteps (braces) for his feet that will go with shoes and help create the habit of standing on his feet properly.  He is expected to need them for only about 6 months, since he’s so young.  Also, since we’ve been working so hard on large motor skills, we’re going to get new evaluations for fine motor skills and feeding.  He’s making wonderful progress, so we expect a little extra help will help him get caught up all the quicker.

This has been a challenging, but exciting year.  I’m very happy with how far we’ve come, and where we are now.  I’m excited to see what the next year brings and beyond.  Felix has become such a wonderful little boy.  I don’t know what I’d do without him.

Blog Changes

First of all, I’d like to say my changes will not affect my content. Everything will still be here, and I’ll continue to add the same sorts of blog content and updates.

This is just a name change. I’m going from “HippieMom” to “RecycledStardustt,” and the blog will change to reflect that. The URL will change as well. For an explanation on why the change, read on.

Changes will take effect within the next few days.

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HippieMom or HippieLady has been my online presence for years now. However I just don’t feel like it fits my lifestyle anymore. I’m still a tree-hugger, peace-lover, love to go barefoot, try to be eco friendly when I can, free spirit, baby-wearer, etc. But am I really a hippie? Mmm… I don’t feel like I am much these days.

Stardustt was my very first online screen name back when I was 12 years old. Not only that, but I feel our physical presence on this planet is nothing but recycled stardust. So I’m recycling my name just like our carbon atoms are recycled. It all fits!