Unsettled

I’ve talked about this a bit amongst my friends and family. But I’m just going to put it out there officially: I DON’T LIKE IT HERE. Everyone I come across seems to have moved here from somewhere else in the country, or every from other countries. And everyone tells me “oh, you’re going to love it here!” Ok, why? Why does everyone love it here? Traffic is absolutely atrocious, day and night. If you such as need to run to the store for 1 or 2 forgotten items, it takes at least 45 minutes. It’s urban, but things are spaced so far apart, with a thick strip of trees between everything to make it appear more rural. All the roads are twisty, making it also take longer to get from one place to another. There’s no direct route for anything. People are nice most of the time in public, but no one seems to want to create a real friendship. (I know some of the is the pandemic, I don’t need reminded).

I used to think living in a bigger town/city would be more convenient. With more things to do and a bigger variety of people to meet and befriend. More career opportunities and a better overall environment. I was completely wrong. It’s simply not for me. I want a smaller town. Where businesses are all within a couple miles of each other, and you can go for pleasant walks in your own neighborhood without cars flying past at 60mph. I want familiar faces instead of a constantly changing sea of strangers. I want a bank and doctors office that greets you, knowing who you are instead of treating you like “just another person.”

I never in my life thought I’d say it, but I miss Newton. Maybe not Newton specifically, but the culture. The small town, familiar faces, some people know your name, safe, comfortable culture of a smaller town. It’s the kind of place I want to raise Felix. Not the city.

I can’t say I regret coming here to the Raleigh area. I have learned a lot, mostly about myself. It’s something I should have learned earlier in life. But now that I know, I want to find a smaller town to go plant roots. Maybe Iowa, maybe not. Wherever the wind blows Jarrod and me. I love exploring, but I look forward to finding a place that we don’t want to move away from.

Beach Day

This happened on May 24, 2020.

North Carolina has many things to do that Iowa does not.  One of those things (and likely my favorite), is BEACHES!!  I adore trips to the ocean.  Since we had been through weeks, or even months of planning, and a long, stressful move, Jarrod and I decided to treat ourselves and the family to a trip to the beach for some fun before resuming normal life.  It just so happened to be Memorial Day weekend, which we weren’t trying to celebrate necessarily.  But we went anyway (except Evan, who decided not to join us).

It is a 2-hour drive from our home to get to the closest beaches.  We drove straight there and found a decent parking spot after a bit of driving around looking. We spent about 3 hours in the water. The beach flag was red, so the water was pretty rough. But we all had a blast! It was exactly what we needed.

Also, this was Felix’s first trip to the ocean. Lots of pictures, but I’ll share only a couple here.

Amazing Progress

In the last four weeks a lot has happened with Felix. Just four weeks ago, he wasn’t even trying to get himself around. He would scoot a little bit, maybe roll here and there, but that’s it. Then, he started doing the army crawl, where he was pulling himself around by his forearms. For the past couple weeks he’s been full-on crawling on his hands and knees!

For the past 3-4 days he has been pulling himself up into a stand both in his crib in the mornings and during play times in the playroom. Also at that time he started babbling at last! He’s become very focused on the exersaucer and all the things he can do with the different toys. He’s working hard on making his hands work.

And today he took a couple of self-assisted steps! This boy is taking off in development all at once. Jarrod and I are so very proud of him!

SAHM Life

The life of [this] SAHM: take care of baby. Clean. Attempt (and fail) to maintain order with the teens, clean some more, take care of baby, cook, clean, take care of baby, pass out before cleaning is done (because baby doesn’t nap), repeat, daily.

Do I want to spend time with my husband? Sure… we sleep next to each other. Does that count?

Do I want to watch a TV show or movie? Sure… I read captions when I’m able to look up at the TV, and half listen to the rest through crying, talking, loud toys, gaming, and YouTube videos on cell phones.

Do I want to have a relaxing shower? Yeah… I get 5 minutes while the baby plays on the floor or while my husband is getting ready for work in the morning. Or in the middle of the night if I want to sacrifice sleep.

Do I want to eat a meal? Well yeah… I quickly shovel in whatever is baby safe for sharing while the baby is also eating, or while he’s playing or asleep for the night.

Do I want to have a date night? Hell yes…. perhaps when the baby is old enough to have a sleepover with a school friend (in years).

This is my station in life.

Some days I wonder where I am in all of this. When do I get to fulfill some dreams or do what I want? But… I adore my family. I love my husband. I love my kids. And I wouldn’t trade them for the world.

FREE Tubal Reversal Surgery

My tubal ligation reversal surgery experience was outstanding! I’ve written about it before, and I’d like you to read about it if you haven’t already, by clicking

–> HERE <–

That being said, the doctor who performed the surgery, Dr. Monteith, has started a great new program that allows 3-4 people per year to have a FREE reversal surgery. There’s an application process, of course. But this guy and his staff are amazing at what they do. To have the opportunity for a free surgery from him is a true gift. Check out all the details by clicking

–> HERE <–